Waaaaaay back at the beginning of the year, when 2012 was just a babe in arms, someone asked me what my word of the year was. In other words, they wanted to know what word would I choose to try and live up to this year.
Choosing a word of the year, is not something I normally consider doing, however for whatever reason, the moment the question was asked of me, I had an answer – focus.
I knew that I wanted to focus on being focused. It had been obvious to me for quite some time that I had lost complete control over my life. I had no time or energy left at the end of the day to spend on directing what was happening to me, I was simply reacting to events and doing my best to gets through each day.
I was letting life happen to me, instead of the other way around.
Of course, it’s not possible to control every event that occurs in life, sometimes we are felled by lung infections that last for months, or have Big Bad Things happen that we must manage. But these are (hopefully) rare occurrences.
These past few years – last year in particular – have seen me filling up my days with commitments to everyone else but myself and my husband. I am a scattered woman simply trying to get from Point A to Point B each day. If something isn’t written on the calendar, I’ve probably already forgotten about it.
The time has come to reclaim my life. It’s time to stop reacting and time to start being proactive. I sat down a couple of weeks ago and took a hard look at my life. I forced myself to make decisions about the things in my life that I wasn’t happy about – even the things I didn’t want to admit weren’t working. And you know what? Though some of my decisions were difficult ones to make, once I made them, I immediately started to feel better about Life.
Eliminating the stuff that was (and sometimes still is) holding me back has not always been easy or pleasant, but knowing that I have freed up time to focus on what is truly important to me more than makes up for it. There’s a lightness and a joy that comes from cutting loose dead weight. And there’s an excitement too.
Being less committed to everyone else means I have more time to move forward on projects that I’ve been meaning to tackle for months (years even). I was spinning my wheels trying to do everything. It’s so fantastic to learn that by taking back some of my time for me, I’m actually getting more done overall.
How about you? Do you find yourself over-committed? How do you manage to do it all?